Everyone reading this page should know the history of my love with , pianistgirl(an ex-deviant), and the interference of a jerk just to torture me

You will be the judge, people of Earth

This guy: "Erős Balázs", if that is his true name. His mail is beware_of_jaguar@citromail.hu, well if that is his true e-mail. beware of that guy
Crime: Playing with the feelings of another person, making him cry for days
Victim: Me

Yes, that is me. You know last week I was ready to forget pianistGirl, my wounds were slowly healing, and then this guy came and wrote me a mail.

"how are you doing?"

I was like, "what she wanna talk to me again?". What i did not know is that this jerk, that loved pianistGirl too, has access to her account, and was using it to torture me. I answered with a detailed mail about my love, and sent it many times, but she did not answer, causing me too much pain. I hope he rots in hell for that whole night of crying he caused me.

Then this week he has come again, this time just asking me (as PianistGirl) with coldness if i was still alive. i answered and after two emails he did not answered back. Previously he had also being sending me e-mails as "PianistGirl" (I dont know if this guy wanted to be transexual or something. From where I come we have a name for that kind of guys ) telling me that what Pianistgirl felt for me was not love, that she has lied to me.

He also wrote this:
"I'm not cold,Erick,if I was I would have never written to you back...maybe I must do it...and you will forget me,cause when you will see you will not be able to reach me- you will understand that nothing will help you to do it...
your love will soon fade out...all feelings fade away sooner or later...and then you will feel anger towards me and hatred,lol...of course now you will say it will never be so, but I know it will be exactly like that...
About telling you I loved you or not,if I ever wanted to become your wife-I was surely overshadowed by something,and you know what my brother said?One of the few men, who always tell me the truth,whom I respect so much, he said me I deserve the best man...He sais you will never be able to do anything,cause love will be not that huge motivation for you...
I tell you only the truth...I don't wanna lie to you. You will think now I'm cruel...and yes,I am. Every girl is. And every man.
I'm the pianist goddess who you met...but she has finally grown up. She has her fantasies and dream worlds, but they are open only for somebody...
Tell me....anything you want,you can say me now anything you think about me. I won't be hurt,I say. It's your time to confess."

I could not understand such coldness, we broke but we could still be friends, I was not going to hate her, I did not understand why was she torturing me, so i wrote:

"I told you... I dont care if I cant reach you... or you will never love me, but I do like you as a friend, you are nice, you make me feel nice, even if this love will never work out

I told you! I just wanna play chess with you some saturday you have free, like before our romance started, I dont wanna cut it off, i dont see why, we are not enemies, I dont see why should i hate you, or why we should not talk ever again, I am confused, I dont understand...

I dont understand why you had to rename Nenufar Mimosa and delete my name, that hurt me terribly, what are you trying to hide what happened? We had a romance, it failed, now I wanna remember you as a good friend, we can have dedications to each other like friends before we became "deviantart lovers" we had a gorgeous friendship I dont see why we should let it fail away! I dont want it, I dont see why we should forget each other. It will not hurt me if you dont love me and you date other guys and you marry other guys, but it will hurt me if you try to delete me, to erase everything, because you were so important to me, you are the first woman I could say I love you with all my heart, I made you part of my daydreaming and fantasies.

I dont wanna forget you, I dont see why? Cant we just turn the time back before you became my Saraswati? even then we made drawings for each other, and we played a lot (I know, too much)."

But this guy (as PianiastGirl) answered:
"there was no romance.nothing"

He tried to make me think PianistGirl had never loved me. I knew at the moment it was a lie, it was not her, it was another person or she had been changed by something... the fact is that she was to willing to torture me... you know what is funny? I was right

so I wrote:
"I am frankly tired of this. If you just wanna hurt me Greetings! let me tell you it is a complete success! Congratulations! I am hurt like never before! wow a new record!!!! Lets call the Guiness!

Yet... that is OK: After all it is what you want. For some weird reason You dont want to stop talking to me, you wanna make me feel hate toward you too!!!

You had to come, when the wound was closing, and say "how are you going", just to go away and never answer. Then come back the next week just to ask if I am alive! lol wut? I was supposed to be dead? Sorry i was not informed!!!

yet... here I am, with a long response that you will not even read, sigh...

The worst thing is that for some strange reason we are not supposed to even talk!!! we had "something" (not a romance right? what the heck was that then? I dont have any name for what we did... I mean... I did, because you say it was nothing for you, lol, I guess I was talking to myself all the way, lol), and because it failed now it is bad for me to even tell "Hello there!". I. do. not. understand. and I will never understand

You know what "Maria", I have better things to do than to try to reason with you when you obviously hate me or something worse. May be you think this relationship will end hurting us both even just as friends, so to prevent any more pain you just wanna kill my love with that fatal coldness, or more probably you just plain hate me for some unknown reason I will never understand. I did not do anything to deserve hatred, so it is not my fault.

In fact... I dont think I deserve any of this!! Neither I think this new "grown-up" Maria deserves my Love. You said no, but I know you are not the Maria I knew. She is dead, just dead!!! and I will miss her a lot, but she is now with the gods in the Olympus, as the sacred goddess she always was.

But This new Maria that wanna erases me from her life, that dosnt wanna even be friend with me like if I was evil or bad or something, that says that all the poems and romantic drawings were nothing, this soul-less Maria... I prefer to never have met her. I just cant stand soul-less people!!! I will continue in love forever of my old Maria and I will never forget her, but you whoever you are you dont deserve not even my words, you dont deserve her name!

Indeed, I dont know who the heck are you so I dont know why the heck I am talking to you. I dont like you. I dont love you. You are a horrible person. You are not the person I loved

So lets say Bye Complete Stranger. I dont know what you did to the sweet Maria but if something is sure we will not talk ever again!!!!!! Yet, strangely, that is exactly what you wanted. You wanted me to say that, now you are happy because I hate you impostor, false Maria. I will never forgive you for what you did to the pianist goddess. Never.

Finally, I dont believe any of your lies about the old maria not loving me as she said. I believed her, I knew she would never hurt me. Obviously you and me did not have a romance, how could that be? I dont even know you, complete stranger... but you cant deny with your lies that Erick the Lion-God and the old holy Maria had a gorgeous romance, yes WE DID! we even were going to had a sweet lunar wedding... and you cant deny any of that complete stranger! You cant!"

and then this guy come and tell me this, gloating:
"You wanna know who I am? I'm the "teacher",or how you called me with her? I don't know who you are, I don't even want to know...you are not a rival for me. She deserves more than a poor guy on the end of the world...She is the sweetest thing on this world,she is the best that can happen with me...you are not the best choice for her. I'm able to make her happy,you are not"

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT!!! He even gloats just because he is rich by birth and I am just an average joe!!! But a very intelligent one... Oh you just gotta wait until my software studio finally starts to fly!

and that is not all, he continued
"How could you write so heartless mail?It was me who was writing you all the things about your unreal romance,of course she always loved me...and she has read it...She said YOU are heartless. And she is right. A man in love never writes things like that. Your fault. And you know what? you never deserved her words. Not she yours,she always heard this kinds of love-songs,pfew..."

so you tell me people, am I the heartless one? I am? I am the one causing pain to another guy in the other side of the world just for the fun of it?

tell me people... was there any need for him to come and torture me??? what I had done to him? I had already pretty much lost pianistGirl, and now i just wanted to remain as her friend.

BUT HE HAD TO COME AND TORTURE FOR THE SAKE OF IT!!!

Will be published in all my wikis and webs. The world should know. You gotta be careful with this guy.